WHY I FAILED MY ALCOHOL CLEANSE

Miraval Rose Review
So I’m like 6 months late on this post (literally), as it was in December that I declared I would be doing a 30-day alcohol cleanse, but better late than never? Here’s what happened: basically Paul & I over-indulged on spritzes in Fiji (naturally), and then we came home for 1 week and I packed up and headed to Cabo with Beach Riot. Of course I was going to be sipping chilled rosé by the bottle while suntanning cliff-side at the Cape Hotel. Wouldn’t you? THEN, it was my best friend’s birthday and she celebrated in Cabo so I hopped over from the Cape to Esperanza to drink some more with our crew. LOTS of drinking. Too much. Super unhealthy. And fattening.

Cue my so-called alcohol cleanse. I was literally FULL off of alcohol by the time I came home for good (mid-January). It was the new year and I was ready to take a break from happy hours, partying for no reason, and popping bottles of rosé like it was [summer] water (in winter).

The first few days felt great. The bloat in my stomach started going away and I was feeling “healthy.” Who knew that all it took was cutting alcohol to have a flat stomach so quick? I remember even having a moment when I thought I should stop drinking altogether to just be skinny forever. Ha! I was going strong for 5 solid days and then the weekend rolled around. Shit, it was Friday night and Paul & I were headed to sushi for our weekly date night. We always order 2 bottles of sake to complement our delicious meal but this time we were drinking water??? SNOOZE. Seriously, I was tired like half an hour into the meal.

The following week(s) I started cancelling dinners, avoiding events, and eventually just explaining to all my friends that I’m on an alcohol cleanse so let’s talk when I’m done because I seriously have zero self control if others are drinking in front of me. It was much easier to stay home than be in a social environment where I naturally enjoy a glass (or 2) of wine. Since I had plenty of sober time on my hands I started to really think about my lifestyle. Do I drink too much? Am I dependent on alcohol? 

I actually had someone comment on my photo in Mexico ‘I was reading an article the other day about how certain bloggers on Instagram are secretly battling alcoholism and wonder if any of their friends do anything when they post pictures. I wonder if this lady’s one of em.’ Whoa. It was offensive but I guess I could see her perspective–I post a lot of alcohol on my page. While I’m definitely NOT ordering it for the picture (aka I’m actually drinking it after I take the photo), it’s usually in small quantities. I don’t throw back a bottle each time I drink. 2 glasses is my happy, comfortable place. I hate being drunk, seriously. On the cusp of a buzz is the only place I like to be. Always.

SO, 19 days into the cleanse I caved and opened a crisp bottle of Miraval rosé (my favorite). My family was over, it was Friday night, and I had had enough of the deprivation. Clearly I’m not an alcoholic. It was a tough 19 days because I like to socially have a glass of wine to help me unwind, but in all honesty, if I truly needed to cut it out, I could. I’m all about moderation and balance, and most days I don’t drink, but if I’m out at an event, having a nice dinner, or have something to celebrate I don’t see anything wrong with a glass or 2 of whatever. I drink tons of water all day, I love my fresh green juice, and sometimes I like rosé. Big deal.

The one part of this that I do need to work on, is my ability to be in an environment when others are drinking without feeling like my world is going to end. I seriously want to snatch the wineglass out of people’s hands when I see them drinking on TV because it looks so damn refreshing. However, I am a very self-aware human and know my limits–I know when I need to take a break. As long as I’m keeping a healthy, hydrated balance, my rosé isn’t going anywhere anytime soon.

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6 Responses to WHY I FAILED MY ALCOHOL CLEANSE

  1. Shanna Lynn Davis says:

    …and this is exactly how I feel about donuts. Hahahaha!!! I’m seriously all you describe above only with sugar. Or donuts. I cannot sit around while I watch everyone else eat chocolate, candy, or donuts (except I did last Halloween and also one time this year when we went to my favorite donut place which I am still on a detox from). So bottom line just know you’re not alone. We all have some sort of temptation in this world that we have to get some control over LOL!! xoxo

    • YES!!! This is actually me and cheese aka PIZZA.

      I recently stopped eating dairy for health reasons and I no joke have no bloat, feel amazing, my sinuses are perfect but good grief if there is a piping hot pie in front of me (even if I JUST ate) I am like a pig in sh*t. I HAVE TO HAVE IT.

      My friends and family are concerned that I act ravished at the sight of a fresh slice but you know I’m learning to control it and find other vices so you just have to go at your own pace, not beat yourself up when you slip and recognize the positives of when you cut things out and remind yourself of them when you’re feeling weak.

      CHEERS BABES – good for you both for trying xx!

  2. Sharon says:

    I actually feel the same way about alcohol. I love wines especially and probably have two glasses of wine four or five nights a week. On those few nights that I say to myself ‘take the night off your liver will thank you’ I still find myself thinking about a glass of wine. I know I don’t have drinking problem because like you I have challenged myself for a month of no drinking and I also challenged myself by no drinking except for Friday and Saturday nights. It’s weird I just LOVE wine. I can definitely drink like a fish if given the right occasion but I prefer a glass or two just to chill me out after a long day of work and the million of other things I have going on. Long story short, I totally understand what your saying here and I’m in the same boat.
    Cheers!
    http://www.forthewonderer.com

  3. I completely feel you on this. I hate feeling bloated and gross from drinking, but it’s so hard to avoid it at social functions, date night, or bachelor night (lol). I think moderation really is key!

  4. Vanessa says:

    Haha girl your posts are always so real and funny! I can totally agree with you on the drink thing. I find it very hard to go out to social events if people are drinking and not have a glass or two of my own. I really don’t think it’s the end of the world, as long as we’re not getting wasted every time I feel it should be ok! I find this especially true now that its summer, all I ever want is a glass of rose!

  5. Maddy says:

    Great post! I think it is really important to express to others that even if you post about alcohol it doesn’t mean you have a problem. Like who doesn’t want to instagram a glass of rose in front of sunset? C’mon people. I like how you are open about the fact that you love wine. You can enjoy things in moderation. It doesn’t have to be all or nothing.

    I always want to do an alcohol cleanse but I too struggle with the social part. I’m such a bore when I don’t drink at social events. I’m awkward and literally only want to stay for an hour. Meh! Let us know if you ever find any tips on how to be sober and not miserable when going to parties.

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